Easing off from the thoughts of cancer's return

It has been over a month since my craniectomy, and a few weeks since the great news of a cancer-free biopsy, but I still have to work each day to get relaxed and enjoy the season. It is like I had some military Threatcon exercise, begun with the words "we found a suspicious lesion", and ended with "no cancer found, go home and continue healing". Not all troops in my head have yet heard the news that we went back from Threatcon Delta to Threatcon Alpha. I doubt if I ever get back to Threatcon Normal - that status was eliminated with the initial diagnosis of cancer last year.